Written by MLNPstar Corkle.
I had my first orgasm with a sex partner when I was 16. It happened in plow pose and I gushed all over him, taking us both by surprise.
Since that wonderful day, I’ve had two orgasms thanks to a creative, cute, woman in my neighborhood who ate me out the day we broke up.
I have dated a variety of amazing people, and I’ve enjoyed sex, but more often than not it hasn’t been orgasmic for me. There isn’t a good reason why I’ve had so few orgasms during sex. One thing that I’ve wondered about is maybe all of those other times I was trying too hard to please, and I forgot to please myself first.
I have been a rebel. I’ve always been open, honest and kind. I love getting to know new people. I’ve been drawn to boys I find intellectually or artistically interesting.
Sometimes even if the intercourse itself wasn’t THAT amazing — although it still felt great — I would moan, and make yummy noises and funny faces because I liked the sounds and the way the guy I was with would respond. I thought it was fun to have my long term boyfriend always come so fast. But this gave him a complex, like, tada! I felt I couldn’t come anyway, so why not make him extra happy.
I realize how being an “open book” kind of person has attracted people throughout the years, and now that I am even more open, I am being called to share more of my sensual side of self.
I think I need to find what pleases me the most. I need to respect my mind and body by connecting with others and taking care of me. I get to implement all of my new and better boundaries. I enjoy looking good for myself first. Before, I couldn’t stop exploring what made other people tick enough to focus on myself.
Now, I think self respect and a sexually fulfilling life are all about adding all the little things we feel, do, and think and when we put together all the pieces to surrender to what all those little things magnificently create. ❤
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